Becoming LJ – Week 4

Someday, it could be tomorrow, it could be in a month or it could be next year, but at some point in my future my friends and family will find this site.  Trying to explain this program to the few people I’ve chosen to share this with has been a challenge. It’s more than a mindfulness program I tell them. They smile, show encouragement and I know they don’t get it. Their loss, my gain. So hi there folks – this is what it’s all about – and more – SO MUCH MORE! Welcome to my new life.

I’ve been struggling with some serious pain issues the past three months.  Following a bunch of experimentation with traditional medicine, and the obligatory dance with insurance, I’m finally getting some much-needed physical therapy.  It’s helping, but only for a block of a couple of hours at a time.

Much like finding out about this program (see Week 1), and thanks to some wonderful people I have met through my networking (see Week 3), I found out about another not-so-mainstream alternative to treat my pain.  Of course it’s not covered under any insurance. Couple that with the fact that I haven’t earned more than $500 since June and I was extremely hesitant to pursue it.  Needless to say, I’ve been living off my credit card – literally and figuratively. This pain has overwhelmed me which has affected my income-earning potential so I decided to make an appointment.

Last Friday I had my first CranioSacral Therapy session. I had my second session yesterday and I can’t wait for my third appointment on Friday. If this program is a game-changer then this therapy is its equal. Mind-blowing actually. Light years ahead of PT. Coupled together (CST and PT), I am confident I’ll be back to me soon enough. GUESS WHAT? The CST is COMPLETELY spot on with MKE!!!  As my therapist manipulates (non-invasive AND pain-free) my body in the sessions, she speaks of SO many things aligned with this program! She is also intrigued about my weekly shares with her on what we discussed on our weekly webinar and tasks to concentrate on for the week! Have I mentioned Divine intervention and the Universe aligning for me recently?

Mind you, it doesn’t hurt that I’m leaving for a two-week cruise on Monday (cruising is part of my life – it is factored into everything I do – from my schedule to my budget). Cruising allows me to disconnect from life and escape. I eat well, sleep well and enjoy all the ship has to offer.  Normally I don’t talk to fellow passengers – I like my me time – alone. I do go to great pains to speak to the crew – no matter rank. They work extremely hard to make our vacations special and they deserve to be spoken to and not spoken at. I digress.

I bring up cruising due to this program. For the first time, I have vowed to myself that I will engage with other passengers. I need to let down the myriad of walls I have constructed around myself. Further, I need to start building my networking business. So engage I shall do as I always keep my promises. Wish me luck! Again, due to this program, I’ll be making use of the internet onboard. I’m not sure how well the satellites will work but I plan to participate in the webinars on 11/3 and 11/10 (I’ll still be home this weekend for week 5). The program is that important to me.

A few entries ago I mentioned how I noticed I’m watching much less television. That continues. I’m reading more. I’m keeping up with my duties for the program. And I realized a few days ago, I haven’t had a cigarette in at least a week (I’ve been on Chantix for five years) – as a matter of fact – today marks TWO WEEKS!!! This should be it. No more dependency on those things. I’m working on me, right? Yup, I sure am. So – hasta la bye-bye. As for the alcohol intake during my cruise – well, I won’t chastise myself if I end up partaking – I am on vacation afterall! But even that (alcohol) has been dramatically reduced since beginning the program.

My next couple of entries should be interesting. I’m looking forward to them. Ciao for now – LJ

Becoming LJ – Week 3

Fear dissipates. Habits begun. I enjoy my daily tasks and readings. I commit to me. I am worth it. I deserve it.

For the past year and a half, after ending a relationship I should have ended years ago, I vowed to myself it was time for me. I proceeded to attend events (primarily concerts with a live musical tossed in to spice things up) and continue my cruises through the Caribbean. These were things I couldn’t do in my youth.

Not long after deciding to become a representative for the company I am now affiliated with, I was welcomed by a group of women and a culture that reflects my true self. Yet, I soon realized I had much to learn about social marketing. I purposely didn’t post much about the business until I was comfortable with the products. Now I am ready.

Yet, something was missing.  Attention to me.  Not necessarily making time for myself, as I have successfully woven these activities into my life with the aforementioned treats and instruction, but for me – inside.

I started to attend one networking group of female entrepreneurs and soon joined – regularly attending monthly meetings; through synchronicity I fell upon another networking group of women and felt its warmth and mission immediately and decided to become a charter member of this fairly-new group (it didn’t hurt that I met one member from the first group I mentioned AND then meeting another charter member whose classes I’d previously attended); and I almost became a member of a third – though I ended up listening to my inner-voice and changed my mind on that one – something I just couldn’t identify nagged at me and I bowed out of that particular group. It was the right decision for me at this time in my journey.

The culture I am thriving from these groups, along with the friendships I’ve made along my network marketing journey this year have inspired me. And made me think.

I’ve never been one to shy away from a challenge, and I have often been my greatest challenge! Case in point? I want to grow my business. I want to grow my tribe. Yet I lack the skill set to initiate conversations with strangers. Moreso, if a stranger speaks to me I try to limit the conversation. So, midway through the week I sent out a request to my uppers and peers asking them to allow me to shadow them to see how it’s done. I’m cruising in a little more than a week and my goal will be to speak to people on this cruise, make a connection or more and speak of my life and this business!

We had a homeowner’s association meeting this week.  For the first time in my 7 years of living here, I didn’t raise my voice, I spoke with respect (that is something I always do) and I didn’t join them when they started speaking to me in a condensing tone.  I’m proud of those moments, I kept taking deep breaths and reminding myself that I did’t have to add to the situation. No longer will I have to steep to their level. I’m learning new ways to react. I am learning to not hate anymore – they are ignorant and cannot help their way of thinking. I reflect and ask my God and the forces out there to assist them in seeing there are laws that must be followed.

EUREKA!  My first TRUE (in my mind anyway!) sit this week.  For the FIRST TIME I was able to sit for 15 minutes! Not only that, but I actually started to hear, really see and smell. Joy. AND this is why I know I am just a few short practices away from acquiring the skill to toss thoughts from my mind AND sit regularily. Yes, just a few short practices away. YAY!

Becoming LJ – Week 2

One of the first things I’m charged with doing this week is entering my needs, I’m not sure if these are my final ones, yet these are them as it stands on Sunday. During the exercise, I was drawn to them almost immediately (though didn’t necessarily “feel” them): Autonomy and True Health.

So, FOUR  days with minimal television. Now THAT is something for me. My habits WILL change: I WILL keep working on me! On Tuesday I enjoyed a revelation – just because I couldn’t start my day as planned (hitting my MKE tasks) didn’t mean I had to abandon them (I am a stickler for routine and discipline – maybe that’s a habit?!). I just re-ordered my thinking and hit the ground running with them a little later than I expected. No harm, no foul. See, I tell myself – I didn’t die!

This week I already feel accomplished.  Since I was out of town last week little gelled.  The pieces are falling together more this week (well, with the exception of technology and getting this blog published!).  Haven’t been able to master the sit yet, but I was proud to pull off two-10 minute sits.  Patience grasshopper (I tell myself this all the time). It will come.  I will master it! Finally figured out how to organize my binders (and realized I didn’t have to print every attachment this week!). 

Now this week’s removing thoughts from my mind while I sit around is going to take A LOT MORE practice. And I already made a promise to myself that it WILL happen and I MUST continue to devote time to do so. I have also realized I have been concentrating so much during daily activities/living on not getting angry I have missed opportunities to see this week’s shape. It’s only when I’m checking off my activity that I realize this hasn’t been top of mind. Proud I’m not beating myself up on this – so something is working!

Each day, as I read my DMP aloud, I realize minor changes to make to it – and do. It, as am I, are a work in progress.

 

 

Becoming LJ – Week 1

Sheer luck, divine intervention and the universe aligned last Sunday morning whilst I attended a birthday celebration. In a side conversation, I heard about some “thing” my friend had prepared for and I asked her for more information.  She went on to explain MKMMA – and immediately forwarded me some information she received from an alum.  I was hooked. Within 20 minutes I made my excuses and returned home.

Within 3 hours I had viewed 4 videos, received an email or two and proceeded to meet the requirements to participate in this innovative concept.  Haste was key as the program was only offered once a year and necessitated a 6-month commitment – I had recently embarked on a networking opportunity and finally acquired the knowledge I felt was important to represent the company and realized opportunity was knocking and this was MY chance to learn, better myself AND move my business forward.

I received the link to participate in the program’s launch webcam. This was it.  Done.  I found “my” thing.  As soon as it was over, I rushed to complete and submit my scholarship application.

It took a few days to acclimatize myself to this whilst performing the tasks necessary for my day job. Then I had to rearrange my thinking regarding a conference I was to attend three days later in Orlando. I was committed and wanted to ensure I would proceed as the program explained. The day before I left I received copies of a book that is to become my pinnacle through this journey (fate – AGAIN!).

Everything was printed, my reading started and I was confused – yet I had faith. I kept to my daily requirements (with the exception of lying about my Definite Purpose Statement – which I was only able to construct – in a draft form during my breaks on Thursday – will not lie about anything this important). It began to make sense on Friday – finally.  Divine synchronicity!

The conference I attended is a supplement to what I expect from this program. Wonderful speakers, much tidbits shared, yet I long for this. We’ll see how this goes.