LJ 2.0 – Week 2

I decided to try something new this week. Hoping to make it a habit. No way to know till I begin, and why procrastinate. Let’s see how well I can be accountable to myself!

This week we are spending time with power. We can’t truly appreciate the power within Haanel states without spending time thinking of our definite purpose. Thinking (concentrated thought) is energy. SO … I’ve decided I’m going to up my power game! How? Not only am I thinking about my job, but I’m choosing to write about it here. As I write, I’ll begin to talk about it (literally and figuratively) and the more energy I build up the more power I have and I’ll be able to do even more! Another way to put this is that I’m going to really start to feed my subconscious with the food it needs to help me grow.

I spend my days designing things. Pieces of furniture or units thereof for clients to store their possessions in and become better organized. Been doing this for a lifetime – organizing (not the designing part I just mentioned). I’m a big-picture kind of girl – and I see beyond what I’ve been charged to do. Always have. Always will. I’m a born leader. From the earliest time I can reflect upon, I was the one gathering “the troops,” as I got older I was the one to make things happen. During my former career, I led departments then organizations and have been able to maintain my sight past what is in front of my nose. When I burned out in that career, I turned my hobby of rearranging furniture in spaces into my second career designing the things I mentioned at the beginning of this paragraph. I am lucky.

Now it’s time to ramp that up. I need my subconscious to start percolating at a more frequent vibration as I formulate a plan to take me to my next chapter.

Literally, every time I walk into a space, I feel it. Honest-to-God feel it. It truly is instinctive within me. And I’m blessed to have this gift. So I need to figure out how to share this with others, and monetize this too! The latter will come – once I set my thoughts constructively to harness the mightiest of all minds – that of the Universal Mind.

So I use my sits this week to harness this power. And I will continue to do so. And this week isn’t so easy cause I’m supposed to not have any thoughts, and as Haanel predicted, thoughts do enter my mind, a lot! Rather than letting those thoughts carry me away down a path I’m not interested in following, I direct myself to think of my challenge. As these thoughts come into my mind, I ask that they leave me now so I can concentrate on nothing. Just like “the man” asked. I’m getting better at it!

LJ 2.0 – Week 3

I swear, each time I start a new chapter I am finding things I missed before. Whether it’s something I misread, just missed, or seeing in a new light. I think I’m becoming more aware this time around as I vowed to myself I would listen to the audio of each lesson at least three times per week. I am in awe as to how much more I am learning!

Case in point, on Wednesday I was playing the audio to the lesson during my acupuncture treatment (I had asked my doctor to mute the chants I normally listen to cause I wanted to keep my promise to myself and what better circumstance to be in than on a treatment table immobile to listen, really listen to Chapter 3!) when half way through he jumped from wherever he was sitting (I keep my eyes closed to meditate) and excitedly exclaimed, “that’s what I’m doing with these needles!!!!” To wit, I advised him, I know. I get it. That’s why I’m here. I realize opening our solar plexus requires a combination of thought and physical activity and so much more. And that’s why I keep waiting for him to get a Qigong class started. I will be more powerful than ever before. And I won’t stop. I know my very life depends on this and so much more. On so many levels. So I continue. And I get better.

LJ 2.0 – Week 1

Rabbit rabbit – October 1st and the new LJ continues to emerge! This year I spread my wings wider than they’ve ever been sprung before. I am poised to be THE person I was meant to be.

I reject the various forms of pain I acquiesced to in the past – LJ 2.0 masters patience as never before and becomes a master to the principles given to me. Habits are refined. Failure no longer is an option – goals are being met. I continue to rise from the dust of my former self. I see more than I’ve ever seen before and I see farther.

Becoming LJ – Week 24 and Commencement

Six months ago, when we were all asked to write a weekly blog – I read so many that began with “Today I begin a new life.” It was a powerful statement and one I felt, but didn’t acknowledge. Six months later, I truly am beginning a new life. I am overcome with emotion as to all the education that has been bestowed upon me. I was hungry for it and I swallowed it up whole. Many times I didn’t grasp the full meaning of what we were to think about, and I didn’t stop till I had a semblance of what “X” meant to me. Today I begin a new life. Literally and figuratively. I have the necessary tools to pull from my toolkit to deal with the various strange happenings around me on any given day. And I welcome whatever challenges I may come across.

I purposely held back writing this blog entry until our commencement webinar yesterday, My intent was to synthesize some thoughts that have transpired over the past couple of weeks. We, as a society, are adjusting to our new normal. I have had the pleasure and honor to be adjusting to my new normal for the past six months. I will not allow fear over Covid-19 take over my thoughts. It shall not ruin my health. I will conduct myself with common sense.

Week 2 of completely working from home. Appointments at clients’ homes are now a distant memory. Infrequent trips to the grocery store become the highlight of my week. Walks with Gustav are truly turning out to be “the” social activity in the neighborhood – dog owners congregate (I secretly believe we are all watching through our windows and pounce outside when we see another walking their dog) to let the canines socialize. Yeah – sure, whatever you want to call it, go for it! I know we are craving human contact, you know – the in-person kind so we camouflage it by saying it’s for the pups!

I have the sweetest neighbor who participates in this activity, she is immuno-compromised and has been in self-imposed exile for over 3 weeks. I’m sure she’s bored. Unfortunately, it has become evident she has not much to do but watch television. No, she doesn’t stream, she watches the news. ALL DAY LONG. EVERY DAY. She has become the neighborhood pessimist. She knows I don’t watch television and quite frankly I’m sure she doesn’t believe it, and that’s okay, but when she runs up to us with the latest negative news flash – well, I just disconnect. I’ve asked her on several occasions to not bother letting me know as I cannot control any of this. Well, this morning I lost it. Yup. She started another sentence with “I’d hate to be …..” and I cut her off and told then don’t be. Fractions of my old DNA spewed out yet I’m actually proud of my choice of words – in my previous life it would not have been nice and would have spewed off a litany of expletives. I cut myself off and it felt good!

Another week under the belt in our new normal. I am seeing people walk by my villa whom I’ve never seen before. Certainly, I’m sitting in my office at different times of the day than usual, for longer periods of time, which accounts for some of this activity, yet there are neighbors I know who are coming out and walking and enjoying what nature has to provide. I wrote about having faith in my last blog and it’s truly magnificent to see such activity from my desk!

I’m capitalizing on this time away from the day job to continue to work on me. Revisiting some of the old webinars, FINALLY completing my soundtrack in audacity (more thanks than you can ever accept Derwin), and pushing it to the limit with Go90Grow. My goal it to accelerate my learning while I have the time available to me. But I’ve encountered a problem – being at my computer daily for 4-6 hours and furiously taking notes is taking a toll on my body. I was smart enough to raise the computer 10 inches so I won’t be bending forward, and I am trying to be as cognizant as possible to not slouch my shoulders or back while at my desk as I work, but I didn’t take into account my arthritis. I work with those “hingamajiggies” on my pencils and pens to assist my throbbing joints but the frantic pace I’m keeping is starting to physically hurt me. My hands and fingers are sore beyond words. I’m honestly not too sure what to do about it. But, I go on nonetheless.

My arthritic joints

I AM LIVING IN THE MOMENT and I won’t apologize for that anymore!

What was the name of the movie Mark ran in our last webinar? You know, the one where that guy is talking to Meryl Streep about the bees pollinating? I guess I’m zoning in on my flower and I’m not going to let anything get in my way!

Everything IS possible. IT is in ME. I am going to find my way.

Today I begin a new life. For real.

Becoming LJ – Week 23

Six months ago I thought this would be too long a duration for such a program. With less than two (2) weeks to go I feel it isn’t enough time. Then I shrug old DNA away and remember I have been provided with excellent tools from which to go forth to think and act for MYSELF!. What better gift is there than that? To no longer be one of many. To be able to be unique. To not act like that circus monkey always clinging his cymbals. To be me and to know that I am on my journey!

I have improved – I can feel it, I can hear it in my voice, I can hear it in my mind and I have seen it with my results. I’m not where I want to be yet, and I’m not setting up un-achievable measures – I will get there when it’s right. My old DNA would have been rushing me to complete X, reach X goal, etc. I have more faith than ever and I will persist and suceeed!

I am directly affected financially by this new normal. Every time I start to get some of that dreaded feeling in my tummy I utilize the law of substitution. This too shall pass, alas it won’t pass in my timeline, it shall pass under God’s timeline. Until then, faith shall keep me going!

Becoming LJ – Week 22a

Isn’t it interesting that what is transpiring in our world somehow seems to tie directly into the weekly key? I’ve heard my fellow team members state this on more than one occasion and I’ve read it several times in the alliance area. Our community is becoming enlightened!

I’ve mentioned how my old DNA was rearing its ugly head lately and how I was struggling to overcome past bad habits. We are now living with a true pandemic. And the sensationalism the media spews is truly mind-boggling. People across the globe are acting in fear and this fear will fester and grow within these individuals and they will succumb to a continuous cycle of negativity (from what they are being fed from the “experts” out there in the media). This negativity will profoundly affect their subconscious thought and ultimately harvest sickness or decay or weakness. We reap what we sow right? Never before have I ever understood this as well as I have thanks to our study in MKE and what is transpiring around us.

This week’s key has provided me with peace. Perhaps solace. Definitely insight and wisdom. I am changing! And I have been able to rise above the masses and produce desirable thought which will inevitably lead to desirable results. And I thank the good Lord that I left my previous life in local government management five years ago, I don’t think I would be the person I am today and would definitely be making reactive decisions for my city due to this virus. God bless all those who must work through this.

Becoming LJ – Weeks 21 & 22

This has happened twice now and I’m not one bit proud of it. I missed blogging last week. Literally. Completely and absolutely forgot about it. How can I forget a habit I have formed and enjoyed performing over the course of five months out of nowhere? What is going on with subby? I’m hoping that the lifting of a burden I’ve been carrying since January this week will allow me to refocus my hard-thought efforts and get back on track. Why is my old DNA ruling me again? It should be diminished greatly by now, not resurfacing. More contemplation yet again. I’m going to overcome, no matter what it takes.

I started Go90Grow this month and I’m overwhelmed. This is the busiest time of year for my line of work with the day job and I have been putting in hours and hours of work for literally no return on the investment of my time (in other words – no sales – well, actually one sale in February – gross earnings – $170). I am determined to figure out why I can’t or won’t or fear talking to others about my side gig or, most importantly, getting a team built.

I shared by vulnerabilities with the team on our talk Wednesday night and most everyone suggested I take a pause on Go90 and restart it once we are through with MKE. I’m afraid to act to grow my business, I’m afraid to miss out on the live webinars and I’m clearly overwhelmed as I haven’t been able to maintain my steadfast activites for MKE on a solid basis as I’ve had for all these months. Logic dictates I should listen to the masses, but then again, isn’t that why I’m in MKE – to think for myself?

Gratefully, I began listening to podcasts again while driving. Jay Shetty had a nice one on manifestation and discussed 3 common myths about manifestation. I don’t necessarily agree in whole with what he discussed but what caught my ear was how most people fixate on the end result – for example working towards “X” goal, and that in doing so the focus is on the effect (he says result) and not on the cause so people inadvertently do not make themselves happy because they are focusing on “X” and not enjoying the ride to get there!

He and Mark and Davene and many others before us have been drinking the same Kool-Aids and it shows – the answers will come to us in ways that we will not recognize and not necessarily in the way that we expect if we just manifest with our eyes open – like attracts like! Now where did I hear that before?

And how was your week?

Becoming LJ – Week 19

I have spent the better part of the last four months working on “me.” When I found out about the Master Key Experience I had joined it to better my sidegig. After the first webinar I realized I needed more work on me than on the biz. In this past week’s Key, Charles Haanel affirmed my current state with this sentence: “You take the necessary time to eat in order that the body
may be nourished, why not take the time to assimilate your mental food?” I’m pleased I have been able to find the right food to feed my mind. It’s been a challenge and oh-so worthwhile. And yes, there have been a few obstacles, and thanks to the tools provided to us in MKE, I’ve been able to dodge most of them.

I’ve also come to the realization in recent weeks that I’ve left my business activities stray. While attending a local chamber event the speaker flashed the following on the screen, her favorite quote: “A ship in harbor is safe, but that is not what ships are built for.” – John A. Shedd

Night Experiments 3
Beautiful and safe indeed.
boat on Lago Maggiore
Yet meant to be out in the open water.
Always know where you are going

I’ve strayed off course and it’s time to get my bearings again. I finally have a purpose in life and I am DETERMINED to attain it. Some look at persistence in a negative mindset, for me it is my raison d’etre!

Becoming LJ – Week 20

A ship in harbor is safe, but that is not what ships are built for. – John A. Shedd

So I started MKE for the business, after the first webinar I knew I needed to do this for me and I’ve mentioned this fact several times since September, and recently, I’ve also noted how I need to start refocusing my efforts on my business. I have acquired immense knowledge on how to better me and look at life with a whole new lens. What a tremendous blessing. And what I was doing with the business wasn’t working. To that I will shout from the rooftops. So I’m trying, but I HAVE SO MUCH TO LEARN ABOUT THIS NEW WORLD! Much of what I have done, or more appropriately haven’t done, has been based in fear. More than that, I have found out, is that it has been fear induced via procrastination – in this case – my learning about my business. Thus I made the decision to embark on yet another journey – I am going to learn and acquire new skills with the Go90Grow program.

And as Mr. Shedd was attributed to saying, I have been safe in harbor my entire life. I wasn’t born to be safe in harbor. My ship is about to sail and I’m about to find out how strong I am built!

  • Wish me positivity.
  • Wish me strength.
  • But don’t wish me luck – luck has nothing to do with becoming the success I am going to be.

In closing, a random musing/reflection/comment:

Took 4 months but I finally found something that works for me and allows me to practice my index cards multiple times a day now – I am using a flash card app! I haven’t been faithful to reading through my cards every day and it was bothering me. Haven’t found “the” perfect app but the one I did find after several attempts is allowing me to shuffle through them AND doesn’t force me to use the front and back. I’ve used the app more times this past week than I’ve used my index cards in the past month and a half. Progress again – yay!

Becoming LJ – Week 18

“Is this my day to excel?”

Well Mr. Mandino, I certainly have excelled – might not be my best but it sure as hell is fantabulous. And to this I celebrate!

I spend this valuable time now on my day job and I’m now developing a fruitful habit to work on my side gig each evening on a regular, and not sporadic, basis. This is my salvation and something I must devote more time to. Four months I have dedicated on the necessary mental work for me. Now the time has arrived to perform the needed physical work to succeed and attain my Definite Main Purpose. This too shall come.

Since choosing this journey in September I have rid myself of several idle habits, to wit ghastly wasters of my scant resources. I proudly affirm that I hardly ever turn the television on anymore.

Always a lead with a negative happening. I cannot be a witness to such anymore.

To my detriment, sometimes I am too literal a person (a habit slowly being purged from my life). Today I am proud to say I can read between the lines. Scroll IV contains numerous passages worthy of reflection and this particular section resonated with me: “Where there are idle mouths I will listen not; where there are idle hands I will linger not; where there are idle bodies I will visit not. Henceforth I know that to court idleness is to steal food, clothing and warmth from those I love. I am not a thief. I am a man of love.”

Each month my employer brings all designers together for product training and professional development. The company’s theme for 2020 is Win. What was supposed to be a rally cry had me cringing for more than an hour. It’s not about a continuous reach of moving the goalpost, right? That is the message delivered to us this week. I am SO grateful to this journey. In the past I would have blindly followed everyone on the bandwagon. Alas, I refuse to go for the carrot dangling in front of my nose any further. This job affords me the opportunity to sustain my financial needs and I will not fall victim to an ever-increasing performance standard that pushes for more and more sales. The climate has changed dramatically since my arrival there: five short years ago we were a group who helped one another, now it is an atmosphere of who’s to blame who for “X” and following the almighty dollar. This does not align with my belief system. The goalpost is firmly affixed and my aspirations have evolved. Bravo to me.